Friday, January 25, 2013

Again

Yesterday, I watched Harlie's 1st Year slideshow (twice) and bawled my eyes out. For this slideshow I had included video clips ( I should do this more!) and it really helped bring back those memories, those precious moments. Becoming a mother to a teeny tiny newborn was an awe inspiring, joyful and humbling experience. One I didn't think I'd get to live through again, which made me sad. I thought Harlie was truly the last one because it just wasn't possible to have another baby-- not at this time, not in my world, not now after everything that had happened. And yet.  And YET. Here we are, awaiting little Ashlynne Marie.


  


I was bawling yesterday because I get to do it all over again and they were tears of joy and anticipation. Scott and I and the miracle maker made it happen somehow and everything is gonna be ok. We're ready. The time is right. We just didn't know it before.

Harlie Shavonne, my heart feels like it might burst with how much love I have for you.

But little Ashlynne Marie, it's managed to grow twice as big now that you are in our lives and I can't wait to fill it up...all over again.
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  1. KerilynJanuary 25, 2013 at 2:56 PM

    I'm crying tears of joy for you and your family, Sis. What a touching little letter to Harlie and Ashlynne.

    "Scott and I and the miracle maker made it happen somehow and everything is gonna be ok. We're ready. The time is right. We just didn't know it before."

    That just struck me right in the heart. These little hurricanes of love and fire that make our lives as parents so worth living. I'm so glad the miracle maker was looking out for you.

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  2. AlisonJanuary 25, 2013 at 3:10 PM

    This gave me goosebumps, Erin, and the line that Keri quoted above made my eyes sting with tears. Just beautiful! <3

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  3. KerilynJanuary 25, 2013 at 3:18 PM

    Okay, just watched the video....you make sucha beautiful mother, Erin. Those photos of Harlie are precious...I feel so lucky to vicariously through you with baby Ashlynne. Those special early months of baby stretches (omg!) and chunky thighs and incredible grins. Now, I'm tearing up again...

    I'm just so so so grateful you get to experience this all over again.

    (The video included in this slideshow is so great, btw.)

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  4. LanieJanuary 27, 2013 at 4:55 PM

    This was a beautiful post. Things work out just as they should. This makes me want a million more babies.

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